Just finished my last leg work out pre show, and I must admit I’m really tired now, both mentally and physically. I tend to think it’s more mental, because I am now starting to get a bit nervous, second guessing myself and wondering if I’m “good enough” to stand up on stage among the other contestants, if I’m prepared, is my suit going to fit, how will I remember my routine, etc. etc. I am my own toughest critic, that is how I’ve always been, but I am trying hard not to psyche myself out. My diet is going fine – I’m eating normal up until the last two days, when I will increase my carbs (staying within my regular calorie limit) and rest (no gym), to fill my body with glycogen.  It’s hard for me to accept that my physique now is as good as it’s going to get before I step on stage, I always want to improve and get better, but no miracles will happen I believe this week. What I DO have, is the week after, the month after, the year and hopefully decades after this – to improve my physique! This show is going to be just a fun experience, and I have to remember that. It has been a great tool for me to keep pushing myself, focusing on every aspect of body building, dieting and how I talk to myself.  Right now I feel like sleeping for days, but I’m going to pick myself up, put on my shoes and go through my routine once again. Then tomorrow I have one last workout – where I will focus on back training, and perhaps do some abs and triceps, and then that’s it! Here’s a couple of shots from the gym this morning, always post oatmeal so not exactly depleted in the mid section lol.

I have done a couple of spray tanning sessions but still haven’t applied on the JanTana lotion I’m supposed to do before getting the pro-tan on Friday – that color looks scary!! I’m not sure I will be able to apply it evenly enough, so I will have to muster up courage to do that, lol.  The color is so dark!! Help…  Ok, I’m off to either take a nap now or get on with my day!!